The Story Of My Life

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Singer/songwriter who is 34 years old and from Sweden.

He has been writing music since he was nine. Released his first album "The story of my life" 11th January 2017 which contains 15 personal and emotional pop songs with strong and clear melodies and storytelling lyrics

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Smisch is a 34 year old singer/songwriter from Sweden. He has been writing music since he was nine years old and released his debut album "The Story Of My Life" 11th january 2017 containing personal pop songs with strong and clear melodies and storytelling lyrics. ... more

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Track Name: The Story Of My Life
The Story Of My Life

In a room enchanted by the music
My thoughts are so straight
Built with a beautiful acoustic
Making the vocals sound so great

Here I write the poem about my life
And then put lovely tones to it
Here I can fight my inner strife
That never wants to quit

But far from the suns rays
Nothing is complete
Here pours tears down always
Like a waterfall
Anybody can see

The story of my life is not so pretty but quite nice
Of all the things I’ve done there’s nothing I regret
Because of it I am the one I am today
And nothing else can change that anyway
It’s the story of my life

Through the crisis I’ve lived to see
The music keeps me standing strong
and when I try ways to set me free
That in the end proves to be wrong

I’m shielded by my own creations
My guitar becomes my sword
And music’s wonderful sensations
Saves me with its chords

But other and sweet things like
All love that’s in my life
I don’t want to forsake so
I turn around
and everybody can see

The story of my life is not so pretty but quite nice
Of all the things I’ve done there’s nothing I regret
Because of it I am the one I am today
And nothing else can change that anyway
It’s the story of my life

When my body fills up with a longing
away to a world without demands
I look back at all the photos from my life and understand
I have friends around, get all the love I can
I seem to have it fine where I am

The story of my life is not so pretty but quite nice
Of all the things I’ve done there’s nothing I regret
Because of it I am the one I am today
And nothing else can change that anyway
It’s the story of my life
Track Name: I Will Never
I Will Never

How my legs begin to fold
When my thoughts wander to you
All the words crowds in my mouth
When I try to talk to you
Your eyes are just like wild fires
etching the image of you in my soul
painfully wonderful

as you glance around the room
when our eyes meets in a while
shows that you are still afraid
that you’re still too weak to fly
I just want my arms around you
to feel desire once again blow me, to life

I will never quench all your love’s thirst
Setting my soul on fire
Never be the one that first
gets your tears running down and
Never will I betray your heart and the faith
Making your love start to live again

when you turned away your face
And denied me for a kiss
It ached so deep in my heart
All emotions filled with bliss
That warmed beautifully went away
down the bottom of the abyss I’ve dug
For the sorrow of my heart

How can I explain to you
I’m always ready to make
Room for you inside my heart
When you’re not ready to take
The step beyond the true border
Where love is powerful and so,
divine

I will never quench all your love’s thirst
Setting my soul on fire
Never be the one that first
gets your tears running down and
Never will I betray your heart and the faith
Making your love start to live again
Track Name: A Too Vivid Dream
A Too Vivid Dream

The scent of your hair in every wind it makes me miss
how it used to tickle on my cheek when we hugged and kissed
I can still feel heat from when you lie tight close to me
The life we two had together is my sweetest memory

You were my life, oh, you were so full of grace
In my heart you’ll always have a place

You and me
We were so close together
Without a doubt we were
Meant to be
No one could break through our wall
Of love until forever
Endlessly
I wonder if it all was just a vivid dream
A too vivid dream

Sometimes I hear your featherlight steps passing by
sometimes we talk when I’m alone, though it makes me cry
Oh I miss your laughter, the sound of it, can’t help but smile
none of the things we’ve seen together is never again worthwhile

You were my life, oh, you were so full of grace
In my heart you’ll always have a place

You and me
We were so close together
Without a doubt we were
Meant to be
No one could break through our wall
Of love until forever
Endlessly
I wonder if it all was just a vivid dream
A too vivid dream

But still I have so many lovely memories of your face
And my heart, will forever beat a second time, when I think about the place
Where we met and were ready to give up everything
In the land of love, we were queen and king

You and me
We were so close together
Without a doubt we were
Meant to be
No one could break through our wall
Of love until forever
Endlessly
I wonder if it all was just a vivid dream
A too vivid dream
Track Name: The World Is Waiting
The World Is Waiting

The world is waiting for an answer from me
To explain why I’m on this earth
well, maybe I’m the only one who thinks that way
It feels like my life has no worth,
Has no worth

Maybe I need to take one step back and
Think about where I want to, for sometimes
Panic rises like a hurricane together
With thoughts about what I must through

Future’s standing at my door
But I’m holding back
Fear for getting somewhere bad
Is everything I have
To fight my inner foolhardness

All my dreams are made up by a child that all too
Long have believed in fantasies
Maybe I need to let go now of all of those
Dreams for children to dream in
To dream in, To dream in

To me the world seem just too big to make
Even the least impression on
But in the end that’s the only thing I want to
accomplish here before I’m gone

Future’s standing at my door
But I’m holding back
Fear for getting somewhere bad
Is everything I have
To fight my inner foolhardness
Track Name: Together
Together

The last time your eyes caught mine
was a dark december day
you held a knife in your hand
and you said ”I can’t live with all this pain hidden behind”
And you asked once again, for just
one more chance and then

You said
I will never let you go
All the good times we’ve had
And all the moments when we cried together
I admit that I hold on to things so
In the way for our love
But if I can’t feel you forever
I’m lost

I tried to explain my life
is too complicated and
now it’s too hard to be two
but I swear that if I can find
a way to fight my fears
Then I promise that I am prepared
to give our love one more try

because
I can never let you go
All the good times we’ve had
and all the moments when we cried together
I admit I too have shadows just so
in the way for our love
But if I can’t feel you forever
I’m lost
Track Name: Stuck
Stuck

One old scarred soul
Wears on a city park-bench
With the bottle he needs to survive
Has never before
And probably will never ever
Lose his faith in the ties
weaving the dream together, plays it once more
Again and again and again
Reminding him of the long lost times from before
And every long lost friend

Cannot find reason enough to live
And without breaking a single tear
He begs his daughter to forgive him
Every day every year
I should have been there
I should have stood there by your side
But I got lost somewhere
Between the darkness and shadows behind

Like every night
Anxiety colors his sleep and
Freedom is lost in sin
And every night
He tries to fight it but loses
His will is too weak to win
Chains down his mind in shackles
In body so frail
With thirst that won’t disappear
He trembles around in the darkness and cannot see
The bright way to get out of there

Cannot find reason enough to live
And without breaking a single tear
He begs his daughter to forgive him
Every day every year
I should have been there
I should have stood there by your side
But I got lost somewhere
Between the darkness and shadows behind
Track Name: Easier Before
Easier Before

In a heartbeat it is gone
life has taken what is hers and I suddenly think about the time
that passed by while I dreamt
Like when I was a child and went around and sold papers
down to the harbor and then outside of town
While the wind and cold hurt my face
all I could think of was what I saved to
All was easier before

In a heartbeat it is lost
All the passes that never found their way
On the field where I have worn
At least a dozen shoes or more
It won’t be like before when I think about the first time my
heart was torn into pieces I thought that life would end
I was only eight and felt there was no chance
I could ever love someone else like that
It was so fragile before

In a heartbeat it has turned
The winds of life change, and find their way back to the east
Like my childhoods winds were like
By the beach where I grew up where I took my first own little
swimming strokes that would take me to what I now become
It’s so hard to imagine
that all those things makes me to the one who I am today
yeah it was easier before
Track Name: Summer Love
Summer Love

When the last snow melts away
there outside my door
It gets hard to keep the joy within
memories from before
Of all the summers filled with swim and laughter
and honey’s so sweet
Washes over with nostalgia
and salty taste from sea

Days so warm and in open sea we swim
And all those things that summer’s made up of
it is made up of

Free, I just feel so free
When the wintertime is at ease
I can’t hold back my laughter
singing love songs until the nighttime darkens up again
And a cold wind blows out the summer love just when
it burns so strong and bright again

When winter’s dark days has been pushed
away by the sunlight
And you put on your t-shirt and skirt
making you shine bright
Blows my mind away I get stuck
on your golden thighs
Your sweet lips quench all the thirst I have
you make me summer high

Hot and sweet days of crush from summer love
And all those things that summer’s made up of
It is made up of

But then there are many days to come
With hearts that beats so strong
And the time that’s not yet gone
We’ll try to make the most out the summer nights
For them to ever shine so bright
To save until the spring’s delight
Track Name: When You Smile
When You Smile

I might not be the one who
you dream dreams about and to
you one day will declare your love but believe
that I’ll try all that I can
to become a better man
But I don’t know if I can win your heart

I am amazed
Time apart always is too long
just the presence of you makes me feel so strong

When you smile at me
Then my breathing gets so deep
and when your tears are falling down
feels like my heart will take a leap
And when you’re kissing me
It sends shivers down my spine
I prey forever you’ll be mine

Sometimes when you don’t see
I watch you smile in secrecy
When you walk around just doing things the way you do
You’re beautifully unaware
And in my fantasy we share
The same feelings you love me like I love you

Your sweet eyes
I can sink into, I prey
that I can wake to your lovely smile each day

Cause when you smile at me
Then my breathing gets so deep
and when your tears are falling down
feels like my heart will take a leap
And when you’re kissing me
It sends shivers down my spine
I prey forever you
I love forever you
I hope forever you’ll be mine
Track Name: Break Yourself Free
Break Yourself Free

It is so beautiful tonight
A night in June, the stars shine bright
I wrap my coat around you
Doesn’t this feel right and true

But we need to pass and leave
The one thing in our way
Yes, you need to be so strong to
Break yourself free, break yourself free

It all feels so unreal, who knew
That we two still need to be two
That all our feelings have been banned
oh please darling, take my hand

For soon will slowly we
Fly across the land and sea
But it’s just in fantasy
You are free, you are free

You tell me that he frightens you
With his way of acting, talking to you
The times when you fight about
Nothing at all, he screams and shout

But it doesn’t touch the real
problem that became we
And there is just one solution
Break yourself free, break yourself free

I cannot participate
In how he treats you, all the hate
It must be time for us to make
Something about it to not waste

All the love that we’ve built up
Out of the wreckage of yours
Something warm and strong and tough
Break yourself free, break yourself free
Track Name: Just Come Close
Just Come Close

I have always searched for relief
believed that there is someone out there waiting for me
Every time you slip out of my
hands and I lose the ability to feel

And all hope wipes out
time when I should try
to find someone else to share my heart with
Want to forget all
which is rough and cold
but I only remember your hand to my cheek

And even if you chose
that you just want to come close
It feels just like the time’s standing still when you leave
To be able to be near is a feeling I fear
And even if it’s deadly it gets my heart to beat
But soon there is nothing left

In my struggle with the goal to achieve
Happiness I risk to lose myself and then
Is it truly worth all this fear
to get you in my arms, for us to be near

This fight inside of me, it hurts so much so be
honest and say if you want to get chance to stop
life from ending now, The wind from blowing out
the flame burning in my soul and keeps me alive

And even if you chose
that you just want to come close
It feels just like the time’s standing still when you leave
To be able to be near is a feeling I fear
And even if it’s deadly it gets my heart to beat
But soon there is nothing left

left to stick the hope against
you took all and went out the door
And all the memories I had fenced
Have broken free and slowly pours
away to a pool of wasted life

And even if you chose
that you just want to come close
It feels just like the time’s standing still when you leave
To be able to be near is a feeling I fear
And even if it’s deadly it gets my heart to beat
But soon there is nothing left
Track Name: You Are My Life
You Are My Life

I carry a secret within
It hurts just to think that you don’t know you’re in
the story in my heart about my whole life
where it is weaved into a melody

You are all I think of
getting my heart to sing tribute tones to love
You are my passion my muse
All the inspiration comes you

You are my life
You’re the air I breathe
The one that I turn to
When I’m alone and in need
With you I want to spend the rest of my time
With you I will share all I have
You are my life

I am so grateful for
All day’s you give me
and that you’ve opened the door
bringing all the beautiful tones to me
This is my tribute to you, your melody

You are my life
You’re the air I breathe
The one that I turn to
When I’m alone and in need
With you I want to spend the rest of my time
With you I will share all I have
You are my life
Track Name: One Million Remains
One Million Remains

I have been here just staring at the watch for a while
Seen my time passing me by
Every minute and second as I
do nothing to build up my life
Time isn’t enough, sitting down is too tough
Still I can’t help but feel like concrete
My ambitions will take me to new places but
I don’t know where I want to be

I have walked thousand miles but one million remains
To give me the things that I lack
Neither storm nor the rain nor the hurricanes will
turn me around to go back

Everything I have memorized and
have a goal to one time achieve
grows in my mind as I understand
the big ones takes time and belief
I lie awaken and see pictures of how it feels
When I realize dreams that I’ve dreamt
But one thing that I know is I’m terrified of
that my happiness has been condemned

I have walked thousand miles but one million remains
To give me the things that I lack
Neither storm nor the rain nor the hurricanes will
turn me around to go back
Track Name: She
She

She came like a storm
and lit up my life
She came as a fierce and wild sea
Her caresses gave
me hope about a world
Where every man can be free

Her smile melted my
hungry heart and her glow
made my body full of delight
it was impossible
to say no
I became so weak by her sight

With her hair let out
and the sun from behind
She looked like an angel, so sweet
She whispered so softly
”You are life to me”
”You’re the ship keeping me safe at sea

the kisses were
just like food for my heart
They nourished all of my needs
And thoughts about
another life when apart
Never had chance to break free
Track Name: Crossroad Of Love
Crossroad Of Love

It is so hard to feel at ease
But still so easy to get by
Finding your way in the darkness
Takes a little more than time

To feel how hard your heart beats
For each person every day
How it blurs all your reasoning
And keeps the sanity away

Is she the one who’s here for me
Or will she turn around and go
Will she be holding my hand as I die
Always the answer has been ”no”

If I choose to live now
Hand in hand by her side
Will I be able to keep her satisfied
And will I make her cry sometimes

Will I dare to let love in again
To once more feel safe and caressed by it’s hand
yet there are still some things that stands in my way
Will I ever succeed to get through

Here I stand and must decide
At a crossroad all alone
The urge to gamble is not all too big
But it’s all that I still own

Thoughts are whirling in my head
Afraid of the choice I have to make
when you feel weakened in front of real love
there’s no reason to feel ashamed
when you feel weakened in front of real love
there’s no reason to feel ashamed